so it's been super long since i last blogged here. nobody probably even reads this anymore, but whatever. so its almost the end of july. it seems like my summer is just flying by. my last summer ever. sad to think about that. i had my wisdom teeth pulled out on tuesday. what a horrible experience. i've been on a liquid diet since then, which isn't too too bad. vegas is coming up in like 3 weeks. excited and saddened. excited since its vegas and i get to hang out with all my friends at such an exciting place. saddened knowing the fact that a couple days after we get back school officially begins. school. a subject that i try to block out of my mind but i can't. school. hesi. capstone. graduation. hesi. waking up early. tests. hesi. honestly i'm very worried about that damn test. i try and study but i don't seem to have any motivation. it's hard to gather up what i can when there are so many distractions. tv. internet. phone. ps2. movies. definitely not a good thing. once august hits everything exchanges. hopefully by then my mouth will be mostly healed. then it'll be gym and study until vegas. weird to think about how in a month 4 years will have passed when i first went to usf. where does the time go. most of my friends that were in my nursing classes have passed their boards and gotten jobs. careers have started. wow. 21-22 years old and starting off careers. weird. i miss writing. i havent written anything for awhile. i try and make myself write things, but that never seems to work. it only seems to work if i let myself just come up with things subconsciously. thats what worked with my last work and from what people have told me was a fairly decent poem. my birthday is coming up in like less than a month and a half. 22. doesnt really seem like a big deal. most people make a big deal about their birthdays, but ive never really been like that. i wonder why. the gym is going well. still not at the point where i want, but i know its a process and i just have to keep working at it. my goal is still set in sight at a lean 165 by graduation. graduation. school. hesi. i just gotta keep at it. im thinking i may stay on the liquid diet for a little longer. it's not too bad. porridge isnt that bad. so i recently have become interested in a couple of new tv shows, as if i needed to watch more tv. my good friend rommel introduced  me to scrubs and i must say that is a great show. especially with hearing the medical terminology and understanding some of it, it makes it more fun. another show i started watching was greek. pretty funny show so far and i'll probably continue watching it. not sure how long the season is. recently got hold of a movie ive been wanting to watch for awhile because of the reviews and awards that i saw. a guide to recognizing your saints. independent movie with a pretty good cast in it: robert downey jr, shia lebouf, channing tatum, chazz palmenteri, and rosario dawson. about how a guy leaves his home and after 15 years he comes back. remeets old friends and reminisces about what happened in the past. lately i've been trying to watch more independent movies and collecting them. i have a few so far and they havent disappointed me yet. a friend told me i wear too much blue. that i need to expand my wardrobe in terms of color. i think he's right. and if i had more money i'd try to expand my closet. but for now i guess i have to deal with what i got. besides this semester im only at school twice a week and i have clinicals. maybe i'll expand the colors of my scrubs. so far this summer i have 0-3 in terms of the women category. the first was a girl i met on the party bus. melissa from usf, a sorority sister of kims. well that never developed after that night. never answered my phone calls. its ok. next girl was someone i met at a random night at 181. got her name and number and tried calling her a few days later but i was given a wrong number. wonderful. its ok. the last girl, this one was an interesting one. met her at maj's dinner and talked to her throughout the night. got her number at the end of the night. woke up the next day finding out that she asked maj for my number. the whole story is long but basically shes a little too psycho for me. told me "you're so cute, i love u" after 2 brief phone conversations and barely an internet conversation. repeatedly called me day and night along with texts. too much for me. thanks maj and jeff. its ok. just another chapter in my life. oh yeah, theres a chapter title i came up with whenever i'm at the gym. keeps me motivated. i call this chapter, for the bitches. you get it. not really sure what else to talk about. if anything i'll update this again. this was helpful and yet a waste of time. thanks for reading.

spring break is really too early because im the only one on it.

i forgot how much i missed alcohol.

its wonderful.